Not the best day....or week for that matter!

Okay, so SHOCKER - I'm actually writing in the morning hours rather than the wee hours of the night....it feels pretty weird.

I have just been struggling all morning and thought maybe some of you out there are experiencing the same thing. So, I thought I'd share - I think it might be a little therapeutic of me.

So, Jonathan's been gone a lot the last two weeks....both literally and figuratively. He's been traveling and, therefore, has too much to catch up on when he gets back. I have been doing pretty well with it....until THIS MORNING! (Of course, because it's a Sunday, right!?!)

I have been sitting at the table with my kids painting thinking to myself:
"Gosh, it's so nice to be forgotten."
"Oh look, he has forgotten his kids, too. Great."
"I guess I just have to raise these kids by myself."

So, that last thought finally got to me and registered as 'RIDICULOUS!'

So, I did something completely radical.....I went to Jesus.

I didn't know what I needed or where to find it this morning, so I went to www.biblegateway.org, typed in "grace", and literally prayed that the Lord would pop something up that I needed to read. (Don't judge - I know this isn't always the best approach, but this morning it was "all I got")

As I read through the vast list of verses that contained "grace", I did keep reading one over and over again....

"The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of GRACE and TRUTH."
John 1:14

I have just been sitting here realizing that our whole life these days is committed to not just sharing the love of Christ, but of LIVING a life that reflects Him too....He was FULL OF GRACE AND TRUTH.

This morning - I am not.
I am full of judgment and lies.
Bitterness towards my husband for missing a couple of breakfasts. - Not grace.
Self Pity for myself because I have it so horrible. - Not true.

So, thank you Lord for showing me this. For revealing to me the TRUTH - I am privileged, I am blessed, the lines have fallen for me in extremely pleasant places. I am happy to hold down the fort while my husband tends to things elsewhere, we are a team, we are not forgotten. YOUR grace is ENOUGH. May that be so today and always.

So there it is....if you read this, please pray for me that I will live in this truth today.

For now - I'm off to get the kids dressed, fed, and in the car.......what was that verse again????